"Enough"!

It hurts me that I can’t wake up anymore to the fact that I wake up to see you. My life is already hard as it is and for people to turn there back on me after millions of times. I am naive, I’m not afraid to admit it because people should know how I am really. I fell in love with a guy who didn’t take relationship like I did and I valued it more than anything in the whole wide world. I sound young? Yes, we both are young and at times maybe stupid. He’s a nice young man, n somewhat caring but why do I feel as if I need to leave him? I trust him with everything, like I said when it happens too much it can be enough, and it is enough. People say I shouldn’t go back to how it used to be. They asked me to imagine if I can see myself happy with you, you being faithful and trustworthy. It hurts to see myself not answer right away because I knew deep down inside I wish I can imagine it like I did before, but I cannot…the pictures blurred like crazy! He is considered my first love, and yes I love him with everything I am. I fell in love at a young age, where even both of us questioned if this is real? He tells me things that I want to hear, I admit I notice he thinks he can get me like that ha-ha…but honestly I have my standards and to the point where I say “enough”, I really mean it. I love him and I swear on everything-[I usually don’t swear] that I was in love once and I hope in the future if it isn’t me who he truly loves in the future. I hope for him to find a new true love and treat her with the most respect anybody can earn. Our love was hard to explain and I know I might sound crazy at times I know that even if I am young and may not know what love is. I know for a flying fact that my feelings and soul were real. There were times when I believed his was too, and I hope that is right. I wish for happiness in his life…to one day wake up and realize things. When he wants something he has to have it and he gets it. His personality cannot compare to you and others believe me. He’s something you never thought he can be. When he shows his real self, he is sensitive and has a beautiful heart, let him open to you too but please don’t hurt him.