"Enough"!

It hurts me that I can’t wake up anymore to the fact that I wake up to see you. My life is already hard as it is and for people to turn there back on me after millions of times. I am naive, I’m not afraid to admit it because people should know how I am really. I fell in love with a guy who didn’t take relationship like I did and I valued it more than anything in the whole wide world. I sound young? Yes, we both are young and at times maybe stupid. He’s a nice young man, n somewhat caring but why do I feel as if I need to leave him? I trust him with everything, like I said when it happens too much it can be enough, and it is enough. People say I shouldn’t go back to how it used to be. They asked me to imagine if I can see myself happy with you, you being faithful and trustworthy. It hurts to see myself not answer right away because I knew deep down inside I wish I can imagine it like I did before, but I cannot…the pictures blurred like crazy! He is considered my first love, and yes I love him with everything I am. I fell in love at a young age, where even both of us questioned if this is real? He tells me things that I want to hear, I admit I notice he thinks he can get me like that ha-ha…but honestly I have my standards and to the point where I say “enough”, I really mean it. I love him and I swear on everything-[I usually don’t swear] that I was in love once and I hope in the future if it isn’t me who he truly loves in the future. I hope for him to find a new true love and treat her with the most respect anybody can earn. Our love was hard to explain and I know I might sound crazy at times I know that even if I am young and may not know what love is. I know for a flying fact that my feelings and soul were real. There were times when I believed his was too, and I hope that is right. I wish for happiness in his life…to one day wake up and realize things. When he wants something he has to have it and he gets it. His personality cannot compare to you and others believe me. He’s something you never thought he can be. When he shows his real self, he is sensitive and has a beautiful heart, let him open to you too but please don’t hurt him.

Fruit

If I were to be a piece of fruit, I would be an apple. Being an apple is awesome, I will be wash before I get eaten, people twist my stem off to get a letter of there soul mate, and I get to sit there for a while for a nice decortation in the house.I get squeeze to make juices, and I get to have carmel on me. I`m also very juicy!

Chanda`s Found Poem-Good is always better than anything

He is blessed in the name of all that is good and strong

Always having the strength to live

Good is always stronger than evil

Ultima can use her powers to heal Lucas

Today Ternorio's daughter, nay, his witch died.

All evil can be stopped

She is a great healer and can overcome this evil curse.

My Favorite Cartoon Character

My favorite cartoon character is Clifford, the big red dog. I love dogs more than cats and when I was Little I always watch the show, he is just so cuddly looking. I also had a big stuffed animal version of him and I remember how happy I was to have him by my side when I slept and cried. I wish I still had it but I think my mom threw it away already and it is to big to keep anyways, I missed him so much.

"Forever Connected"-Silke Wettergren

Forever Connected
© Silke Wettergren

Every moment we spent together
Has touched our lives, our souls forever
The things that we shared and learned
Is permanent growth that we've earned.

The person that I have grown into today
Did not get there by chance, no way
I am who I am partly because of you
And you are YOU because of me, too

The changes I see
and what I have learned about me
are a response to how we affected our lives
and what we discover in each others eyes.

It is uncertain if we have to part or one day live together
Either way, we have touched our lives forever!
No matter what the future will show
No matter what we are told.

We are connected on such a deep levels
That no one can remove that, not even the devil.
Our feelings might be different a year from now
But you are part of me forever somehow

A part of me will always be you
and a part of you will always be me.
no matter what happens ,that much is certain
our souls are one until life closes the curtain.

I will love your forever
For worse or for better

You are tattooed in my heart
And nothing can tear our souls apart.

I will never forget you
For my love is honest and true.

Advice

The advice I would give my friend if she told me she was in a abusive relationship, is to get out there. Another thing I orobably tell her to talk to him and get him to go to therapy if she loves him that much.

So yesterday I found out some thngs and OMG! thatnkx for being there close friend.

Valentine`s Day

Let me tell you..V-day was something I never thought would be one of the days where I can say it`s the day of my life. So blessed and grateful to have such a wonderful partner and who I can call a friend. His name is Joseph Jamal Bakhit. I honeslty can`t describe him, There are so many things he does that brightens my day. No matter if I just see him or just seeing him smile makes my days better.

His plans are pretty impresive and pretty crazy. On February 13, 2010 I went on a date, I consider it the first date and pretty sure the best I will ever have. I want to thank him for an amazing day. Anyways, we went to Seaport Village. I honeslty had teary eyed, I didn`t want him to see that but he should know he made me the happiest person. We hunged out all day and yeah it was something I can`t describe..but speechless is all I can say.

I started writing this since Monday but I don`t know if I wanted to post this anymore..but he should know how I feel.